http://bondsprofoundly.livejournal.com/ ([identity profile] bondsprofoundly.livejournal.com) wrote in [community profile] inonebasket2011-11-19 06:00 pm

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This was not how Castiel had wanted to reunite with Dean Winchester. In fact, now that he was at that point, Cas wasn't sure he'd wanted to reunite with Dean Winchester at all. Guilt sank heavy and uncomfortable in his stomach and he was still getting used to the intensity of feeling.

He'd thought things were confusing as an angel. Twenty times worse with a human ticker pumping away in his chest.

Still, there wasn't exactly an option of running when the only exit was prowled by the Leviathan just beyond the door, held at bay only by the wards Cas had carved into the wood and accented with blood from the gash clotting on his forearm. He checked the shells in his shotgun (useless), the bowie knife against his thigh (also useless) and finally, finally looked over at Dean, not sure what he was going to see.

[identity profile] thatwasscary.livejournal.com 2011-11-25 10:10 pm (UTC)(link)
They're practically cuddling. Cas better thank his lucky stars that Dean likes him.

"Oh yeah, good ol' Song of Solomon. Back in the days before I could get my own stuff, reading that was the greatest pleasure I knew." Dean always knew that book hadn't been just symbolic. "Sure, some of the phrasing was a little weird, but you can tell. They were really digging each other."

[identity profile] thatwasscary.livejournal.com 2011-11-25 10:21 pm (UTC)(link)
"Miss the point? I don't think so, Cas, they know what the point is. They're just too damn scared of sex to admit it." He huffs, finding a knot at Cas' nape and digging his thumb into it to work it out. "Which is stupid. Sex is a lot of things, but scary ain't one of them."

[identity profile] thatwasscary.livejournal.com 2011-11-25 10:31 pm (UTC)(link)
What would he be trying to say? That assumes that Dean thinks before words fall out of his mouth.

"What?" Hang on, Cas, he found another knot.

[identity profile] thatwasscary.livejournal.com 2011-11-25 10:37 pm (UTC)(link)
"Okay?" He smooths his hands over Cas' neck, having momentarily forgotten about...everything.

Don't worry. He'll remember.

[identity profile] thatwasscary.livejournal.com 2011-11-25 11:04 pm (UTC)(link)
Right then. Dean remembers! He sucks in a breath, sitting up a little straighter.

"Cas." What. Cas what. Seriously, Dean, what are you planning on saying here? Nothing, that's what.

[identity profile] thatwasscary.livejournal.com 2011-11-25 11:21 pm (UTC)(link)
It's impulse that leads Dean to scoot back and pull Cas into his lap. A terrible impulse. An awful impulse. One that should never happen. Oh well, it happened. No taking it back now!

It's also impulse that leads him to reach up and curl his hand around the back of Cas' neck, holding him where he is. What the hell, Dean, where are these impulses coming from?

[identity profile] thatwasscary.livejournal.com 2011-11-25 11:39 pm (UTC)(link)
Good. Automatic is the entire point of a good makeout session. Dean is distantly proud of Cas, he's just also a little busy at the moment.

After a few minutes, though, Dean yanks himself away with a growled out "Crap." He's enjoying this more than he planned on, and that's making him a touch uncomfortable. Not Cas' fault, just Dean being his own problem again.

[identity profile] thatwasscary.livejournal.com 2011-11-25 11:49 pm (UTC)(link)
"No--no, Cas, I swear." He takes Cas face in his hands, and yes, that's impulse too. "You're fine. You're...great, actually. This is just. This is all me, getting weird. It's not you, Cas. It's not."

[identity profile] thatwasscary.livejournal.com 2011-11-25 11:54 pm (UTC)(link)
"Cas, if you can figure out a way to make me stop freaking out about this whole gay things, you're welcome to try it."

[identity profile] thatwasscary.livejournal.com 2011-11-26 12:07 am (UTC)(link)
Dean snorts out a laugh, falling back onto the bed.

"Only you, Cas." He sounds fond when he says it.

[identity profile] thatwasscary.livejournal.com 2011-11-26 12:19 am (UTC)(link)
Dean doesn't move for a minute, just lying on the bed with his legs dangling over the side. Abruptly, he sits up, grabbing Cas and dragging him in close.

"I'm sorry, Cas, I really am. But I meant it when I said the rules are different with you. I'll keep trying."

[identity profile] thatwasscary.livejournal.com 2011-11-26 12:35 am (UTC)(link)
Poor Cas. Dean really does have more complexes than the universe has names for, all compounded by a deep sense of self-hate. He's trying, though, he really is. For Cas' sake, he'll keep trying.

He waits until Cas is gone before getting up and padding into the bathroom. For once, it's Dean's turn to take a cold shower, and that's incredibly weird, but it's a good sign. Right? Probably.

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