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Well. Well, all right.

Cas climbs in the window, even though the door is right there and unlocked. He closes the window, pulls the drapes, locks the door and is about to circle around to his bed when he spots the bag of food still on the table. Two burgers and two pies.

...he's still starving.

Well hey, Dean did get extra food for a reason. Cas is looking a bit scrawny. Or...scrawnier than usual, anyway.

He rolls over, face down into the pillow, gun safely (hah) stashed beneath it again. "Gotta admit, I'm glad you can't poof anymore. Less chance of heart attack."

How the heck is Cas supposed to know that food is for him. ...okay so it's a reasonable conclusion to reach, but he's still in that semi-awkward stage of 'does he actually want me around' where he's still feeling out the edges of Dean's hospitality. It's a curiously complicated thing for someone still relatively new to humanity.

Cas pulls open the edge of the bag; the paper makes a too-loud crinkling sound in the dark. "I miss flying."

Good job, Dean. Just shove your whole foot in your mouth, why doncha? He clears his throat and rolls onto his side, squinting in the darkness at Cas. "Yeah, I uh. I guess you would--why don't you turn on a light, man? Make it easier to see."

"The loss of my wings isn't equal to half of what I owe to you and this world." Castiel ignores the suggestion to turn on the light and instead decides that he's just hungry enough to ignore this new human need for manners. He digs a burger out of the bag, unwraps it and starts to eat.

"It's still a limb, man." He'll just ignore the munching noises. "That's gotta hurt."

You should probably also ignore the sounds of him removing one of the little plastic containers of pie, too. Because he is doing that.

"Not in a physical way." So not in an important way.

Hey, he got two pieces for a reason. As long as Cas only takes one, they're good.

"Yeah, but it still hurts. Trust me on this one, Cas, if there's one thing I've learned, it's that the physical stuff is sometimes the least important. Everything with Sammy? You? Yeah, I got beat to hell but...but when you walked into that reservoir, that was...that was something."

That's the third time Dean has mentioned the reservoir in one day.

He slows his chewing, swallows his mouthful of food and sets the burger down on the table. Crossing the room, stopping at the foot of Dean's bed and tucking his hands into the pockets of his jacket, Cas watches Dean with that sad, tired, anciently-old look in his eyes. One that tells of a thing that's watched civilizations fall, watched millions die in wars and of disease and still can't think of anything more unfair than Dean suffering hardship.

No it isn't! It can't be! That would imply that Dean's been...obsessing.

Dean's eyes are closed, but that doesn't mean he isn't aware of his surroundings. "You got something to say, you spit it out."

"I'm sorry I hurt you."

Edited 2011-11-21 06:07 (UTC)

"We're all sorry for something, aren't we."

The tone is dismissive; this might be the closest Dean will get to openly forgiving Cas.

Cas sits on the edge of the bed, like he had when he'd just met Dean and woken him in the middle of the night to fetch Sam. He watches the rise and fall of Dean's side, follows the slope of his back all the way up to his neck, the short buzz of his hair. The way the fabric of his shirt bunched at his waist, how he placed his legs. The sound of his breath.

"I suppose so."

It had never been about him before. Only when it had been about him did Castiel start to screw up. Before, when everything had been about Dean, things were hard but things were right.

Castiel thinks he understands now. 'To love is to put it before yourself,' one of his brothers had attempted to explain to him, when he was still young and trying to grasp God's order to love the humans. Obey God, love Man. That had been the mandate.

Now, finally, Castiel thinks he might understand.

Good thing one of them understands, because Dean sure as hell doesn't.

"You gonna go to sleep or you gonna stare at me all night, because that is kind of creepy, Cas. You're human now. Sleep before you fall over."

"Dean."

Let him stay for a moment longer. Stop being insecure and macho for one minute and let him look.

He is not insecure! Much!

"Fine. Do what you want. I'm going to sleep since I gotta drive tomorrow." He rearranges one more time, tucking the pillow securely under his neck, and relaxes, breathing eventually evening out.

Lucky Castiel, Dean doesn't snore.

Castiel watches Dean sleep and feels a bit more like himself for it. When it comes time for him to pass out, his head nodding down to his chest, some deeply buried instinct has him sliding down onto the floor, sitting with his back against the mattress. He slumps, head tilted back, and doesn't realize he'll wake up with a terrible crick in his neck as he drifts off leaning against Dean's bed.

That instinct is going to make Cas miserable if he listens to it too often, but what does Dean care? He's asleep! For a few hours anyway. All too soon the sun is shining, the birds are chirping and the damn motel phone is ringing. Still mostly asleep, Dean fumbles for the phone, managing to whack Cas in the head in the process.

He grunts out an apology before answering the phone. The conversation mostly consists of Dean making incoherent noises into the mouthpiece while he slowly wakes up and the person on the other end eventually hangs up on him. Dean nudges Cas.

"Time to get a move on, sunshine. Sounds like they want us out of here."

Edited 2011-11-21 06:50 (UTC)

Like the nudge is at all necessary with Cas still shaking off that clumsy punch to the skull. Gosh, Dean.

Cas groans, rubbing at his neck as he climbs painfully to his feet. God, he's sore all over, this is ridiculous, this is awful, why did he sleep on the floor? "Who was that?" Because Cas doesn't understand the front desk giving wakeup calls just yet.

"Clerk just remembered where she'd seen me before and doesn't want any trouble. So we're gonna make sure she doesn't have any. Come on, move your ass."

Dean checks his gun, grabs his bag and, almost as an afterthought, chucks a couple 20s on the bed. That oughta help her keep her mouth shut.

Oh, running from the law; the usual. Cas obediently picks himself up, grabs their food and follows because he, unfortunately, has nothing to his name except his weapons and the clothes on his back.

He also snags the keys from the table, hurries out to the Impala and opens the trunk for Dean to throw his duffel in, climbing into the passenger seat and passing the keys over so they can get started on their grand escape. The remnant of last night's burger is already in Cas's mouth.

Worse than that. Damn Leviathans. Yes, yes, Dean should really use a different ride, but dammit, he loves his baby.

Without a word, Dean starts up the car and pulls out of he parking lot, heading for the nearest highway. The more miles he puts between him and this town, the better. Good timing, too. No sooner are they out than Dean hears sirens pulling in and thank you whatever god is or isn't out there, he's glad they left when they did. He also regrets leaving cash for the sell-out clerk. Bitch.

"We're gonna meet up with Bobby at some point. Unless you'd rather stick to the road, hunt Leviathans. We can stop by the house, stock up on supplies. Maybe we'll find something that kills the things." He's giving Cas a way out of dealing with Bobby and Sam. It won't last forever, but maybe it'll help Cas get his head on straight and help Dean get used to him being around again.

Castiel's hands clench around the takeout bag when Dean mentions going to Bobby's house. Eventually he'll have to face him, as well as face Sam.

God, Cas doesn't want to face Sam yet. He isn't ready.

Cas works his mouth for a moment before croaking out, "Whatever you need to do, Dean."

To be fair, Bobby's not at the house at the moment. A second later, Dean realizes Cas probably doesn't know that. He glances over and--actually can't remember the last time he actually saw Cas look distressed.

"Hey. Hey, man, Bobby's not there right now. He's doing research, remember? You're good."

Castiel grunts, because he wasn't distressed okay. He fishes out his piece of pie and pops open the container, picking up the damn thing and biting off nearly half of it.

God, that's another thing he has to get used to. Embarrassment. He doesn't want Dean to feel he needs to be protected, least of all from what he's got coming to him for being a vengeful, dickheaded god. "I'll need to face him eventually. When it happens doesn't matter."

Edited 2011-11-21 07:24 (UTC)